I decided to get a haircut for a change, to gain a little confidence in my not so happening monotonous life.I loved my short hair look.I felt more confident in it.His reaction though was not soo great but he said that I looked beautiful.From that very moment onwards I started to justify my look to everybody.I wanted to know their views on it.Basically, i was literally craving for an honest compliment. And to be true my confidence had already started fading away a little.

I was still trying to manage it considering the tips are given to me.It takes a few days to seep into your new look and look comfortable.Within a day or two, someone said I look fat in this new haircut.It just made me think more and more if this cut made me look oddly fat because my hair was bouncy now.I planned on getting them straightened as then it might make my face look thin.I was acting as if this incident did not bother me but it did.I was very conscious.

I have given birth to a child, running after her the whole day makes me feel hungry.I am aware of the fact that my belly is no more just a belly.I had a very limited diet during pregnancy because I was sick half of the time.I have to do a lot of household chores the whole day with nobody to even lend a hand.I get tired by the end of the day.

She sleeps around 2 am every night so it’s practically impossible for me to wake up early and go for a walk.The most common topic of discussion between me and my husband was how should I lose weight.It started bothering me beyond a Certain point.I was this fussy person all day long.And one day the woman in me just decided to just dump all these thoughts.Its good to maintain a healthy lifestyle and exercise but just fitting into your old dress should not be your motive in life.

There is definitely life beyond all this, beyond what people think of you, beyond what they expect you to be, beyond their mindset…

Only when you will learn to love yourself, everybody else will.

I hope you could connect yourself to my story. If you could please let me know in the comments section below. also, don’t forget to check my blog on how I dealt with societal pressure, postpartum.